diary

 I read and read till the
 date reached 27^th June the day anya and rehan were caught.

27^th June                  9.48 PM

Mum found out everything today. I ruined everything . MY fear has come true. She called Rehan too , I could see him almost crying .. How much trouble he might have faced. I just  hope he forgives me. I really want to talk to him m really deserate but what to do..How should I call when Brijesh is keeping an eye on me everyminute. I have nothing left rather than crying myself to sleep. I miss u Ritzy so much..Forgive me..

And the rest of the page was filled with what could only be wet tear marks. I read further and further , as she posed her awful life in sentences but they could not possess her pain either ..  Reason whatsoever be .. She was suffering as I was… Brijesh was keeping guard , her mother searching everything she could lay hands on.. And Saddest part of all..Rehan was not with her. Then came the page with the date 3^rd July.

3^rd july 2011         10:43 Pm

It all ended today.. I would never forgice my mother. I really wanted to talk to Rehan and seeing the coast clear I pulled the receiver and dialed his number with trembling hands. I waited for my Ritzy to speak.

Anya..Tell me what happened..All well na..Are u breaking up..??
No Rehan m not breaking up..i still like u a lot..
thank god angel I was so tensed..
And I suddenly became aware of what was happening. My mum held the connected receiver downstairs waiting for me to finish. And I had to act to Rehan once again.

Hmmm..i know…What I wanted to tell u was that a lot has been going on since we were caught.mum and dad are checking each bit of paper the can lay their hands on and Birjesh is on a constant watch. 
Yes Anya ..So what..?? the point..??
I would have loved to continue Rehan but ----

Any other option..
rehan no..theres none..i still like u but I prmised my mum that I would become her old Anya and neverlie to her again. Please rehan understand..
I undertand..

Promise me rehan if u get another ofer ( for gf ) u will accept it..
What..?? What do uthink..all I did..all u suffered wasfor nothing..?? I will not let any moment go waste..
What..rehan what are u saying..
U keep ur promise..i’ll keep mine..
What promise..??
I promised a girl that iwould never leaveher and always abide by her..and I will..i am sure I am yours but I dnt know about u..?? But I will wait forever Anya..
Ok fine..I have to go ..Bye..

And tears slipped from my eyes. I had ruin everything..But I would apologise as soon as I got chance..i just hope Ritzy accepts me. When I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown I heard something. A soft whisper That Rehan spoke,

I love you my angel..Good night

I thought of nothing..Just nothing and replied I love u too but all I could hear was the sound of the dead phone ..My mother cut off the line..I locked my room and cried hard till the end of the night and I am still crying and my tears shall finish but not the pain in my heart.

And just as happened at the end of Rehan’s story ..I started crying at the end of this page. I stared blankly at my walls and a gush of warm wind surrounded me gently. MY Angel wanted to hold me I guess. So I wiped my tears and read on. She described how empty she felt without Rehan and how she everyday wanted to run away. How she used to cry at sleepless nights and she was filled with depair..

Anya and Rehan were now apart but Sushant and Navya were still together. Navya would try to motivate Anya but with no use. Anya had mentioned on almost everypage how she wished she had a life like Navya who still had everything together. And then when the date changed to 11^th August it was not Anya hwo wrote. On the top of the page  Curse you anya  was scribbled.

Curse you Anya..!!!!!!!!@@!!!

Its over ..its all over our friendship , my relationship and my life..U ruined it all u dumbstruck fool. I am sure Navya will never talk to you either , nor will i. I thought rehan was a fool to not accept u back but he was right..u deserve this only u bobblehead witch.The firs thing u would want to know will be what u did. So listen .. listen carefully… Regret ur sins.

Remember the day u came to my house after the tomato festival we had just played..?? Remember u were playing with me and I lifted u up in revenge. Remember u hugged me in fun. Navya was there..did u have Viagra with those tomatoes..?? She cryed she left me dumped me. I apologized so much but she wouldn’t listen. Its all your fault. My life is ruined. You know she was the only thing I owned. And u know what ..?? I figured it all out..u did this on purpose..so that Me and Navya would also be unhappy because u couldn’t bear the loneliness when we were heappy. U did this all on purpose dint u..?? Its over Anya. Never never never ever talk to me or Navya again.

-          Sushant.

And then again the rest of the page was dotted with tears which I couldn’t guess were whether Sushants or Anyas.

I turned the page to find 3 different hand writing that wrote a message for Anya.

You broke my relationship on purpose anya.. Well I cant be ur friend anymore

-         Sushant

Anya..U were like my sis. I don’t care about what Sushant said. But if u and Sushant were in love , toh ek baar batana chahiye tha. I would have Let u Have him. But U lied. I am going from ur life.

- Navya.

Anya, I do still love you, but this new man needs respect. I still don’t believe what u did with Navy and Sush. Please Don’t change ever always stay the same. Be Happy..And Stay Safe.

- Ritzy.

Anya must have broken to pieces after reading this.

I turned the page to find Anya’s handwriting.

13^th August 2011           11.23 PM

It was Tomatino festival. We were all there. Me , Sush, Sim , N.E (Neev) and Ritzy.Navy had gone out for some basketball tournament to Bathinda.

For once we forgot everything just to enjoy our favourite festival.We threw tomatoes at each other on this funfilled day.

We played the whole day.Lots and lots of fun and tomatoes. But I could clearly see in Sush’s eyes that he was missing his darling Navya.So I told everyone to play specially with Sush. But Ritzy was also sad , I guessed because I was there. So I told everyone to play with him instead while I interacted with Sushant. So the festival went on and on as the night grew over.At around 7.30 we stopped and went to the garden and had a great shower from the pipe. I had hidden a few tomatoes but all fell except one so when we were wahed amd headed inside I thre the tomato in Sush’s hair and crumpled it into his roots.In revenge he picked me up in his arms and started playing and we laughed and laughed and when we got inside there was a dreadful silence as Navy was sitting on the couch glaring at Sush. He put me down and I laughed. I thought she was just pretending so I laughed and went to take bath. I came outside to find everyone laughing. We had our dinner , Every one spoke but Sush. I thought he was chilled with fear. I never knew this all had happened. That Navy broke up. I apologized but. Oh ! no one is listening.

And yet another wave of tears.

Navy , Sush M so sorry … Ritzy..Pleace come back…M sorry guys. M sos orry ---------------------------------------------This was all the next page held. I shut the book closed and inhaled a deep sense of breath. This was all for today .. I needed time for it to digest. I don’t know how but today it took me only a matter of five mins to fall asleep.